Tuesday, July 26
#222: Same Pattern
I'm stuck, again and again and again. And it seems like this is the only place I run to when I feel stuck. Because no one can ever understand how my mind works, not even me. I see myself falling off a cliff and I don't move an inch. I just surrender to the force of free falling. I don't even try to hold onto anything. I see myself in pain, and I don't even think about how I can ease that pain. And I keep complaining that I'm injured and that I need to do something about it, but I do nothing. Days pass, life moves on, and I get hurt again; I fall into another hole. I do exactly the same thing I have always done; nothing. I give up. I lose control. I chose to not help myself. I chose to fall down. I just go to sleep.